SoulSister

Growing up sucks. I wish I told this to myself when I was younger. Looking back, I didn’t enjoy my childhood moments to the fullest as I should have.  But then again what child really does, most of us are in a rush to get older just to taste that little bit of freedom.  I was stuck in a world of people telling me who to be and how to act that I was so desperate to break free.  I wanted to figure out how to be myself and what did that even mean?  Who was I?  So imagine my surprise when I found out that you still have people telling you what to do and how to act.  Despite realizing that this world is bitter cold, people suck, and no matter how hard you try somehow things always coming up short, I have enjoyed the journey thus far.  Growing up means you are constantly changing, getting the chance to be a better person than who you were yesterday.  Every rocky road, every day when you feel like giving up, know that even those days are blessing.  Things always seem worse than what they are

When life gives you lemons, quietly freak the fuck out? The older I get the more difficult it becomes to let go of things you cannot change, the urge to control everything is strong.  In my short 24 years of living in this amazing world, I have had ups and downs.  When it comes to my downs I have always found a silver lining. This time that silver lining must be hiding in the Bermuda triangle.   At this age dealing with parents getting a divorce, selling our childhood home, living near the city miles away from the familiar, has hit me harder than expected.  I am so grateful to have an amazing partner that shows me love and gives me the space to freak out when needed and still loves me thru it all.  My sister who is also my best friend helps me feel like I'm not alone, despite our differences, she is the one thing that will never change... she is my home. Yet I still go to bed with my heart beating faster than it should, scared of the unknown, terrified for the future.  I can’t do