Learning as I go
Life is always surprising me with its twist and turns. Since my 28th birthday, my life has been a shit show. I fell into a dark depression got out of touch with my friends and family. My partner was there, but with no idea of how to keep it all together. I'm feeling a lot better now but in those dark days, I learned a great deal about myself. You do not need to have all the answers- I have lived most of my life with knowing that you cannot control your life; you can direct it but God (or whatever higher power you believe in) has a different plan. However, my “older age” has turned its back on this idea and I have turned into a control freak! This has made me mad! These expectations from the people around me, the expectations for myself. I have never been the kind of person who desires the " white- picket fence" but people around me are telling me otherwise and for a second I let them. I did think that at this point in my life I would have already figured out what I